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I have only had 3 hours of sleep and i think im losing it @_@

Tomorrow i will be 35 weeks along and i really feel like this pregnancy is coming to a close. I mean, he has to be getting here soon. My pelvis is killing me, i can barely walk through the grocery store without having to take ten breaks or pause because of a shooting pain (or what feels like lightning bursting through my junk, pardon my gracefulness). All i can think about is preparing. I spent all day yesterday just pacing Rowyn’s room trying to figure out what i could do to feel more “ready” because at the moment we are still waiting on his crib and several other things that will fill the space. I ended up washing most of his clothes and mentally figuring out which ones were going into the hospital bag… which we are packing today lol. Yes, so Greg and i have planned to pack the hospital bag (at least mostly), schedule meetings with pediatricians and probably force ourselves to read more of the vaccine book. Then luckily we will escape the madness by having dinner with some friends. Its crazy though how much needs to be done and how i just feel like the clock is ticking now and pretty soon he will be here.


Here are some things we plan to pack for the hospital (i think we have most of it covered but you let me know if im leaving something essential out)

  • our “birth intentions” mainly meant for the hospital nurse because our doula and midwife will know whats going on
  • Contact list (give to doula to make calls or message people for us)
  • Extra clothes for Greg and some swim trunks (for the birthing tub)
  • Comfy PJ’s, Slippers, a robe, some nursing tops etc.
  • Clothes and diapers (chem. free wipes) for Rowyn
  • Toiletries and other things- toothbrush, soap, shampoo, (does the hospital have hair dryers like in hotels? lol) chapstick, small bottle of olive oil to clean off meconium (aka Rowyn’s first poo), belly and nipple balm, sitz blend, herbal goodies for my lady parts  etc.
  • water bottle with a big bendy straw – thank you miss Maranda for your post on things to pack.. it was a big help! ( I would post a link but i searched and couldn’t find it)
  • PILLOWS! i am a freak for my own pillows, and i don’t think i would like the hospital ones very much lol, maybe a bath pillow as well?
  • lists of  restaurants closest to the hospital that we like and to-go menus so that we can send people out to get food for us  😉
  • easy to grab snacks like granola bars, dried fruits, nuts etc
  • Do not disturb sign
  • Ipod with playlists ready to go
  • Camera (may not want any pictures during birth but good to have around for after

I think that’s most of it but i am running on very little sleep so i may think of something i left out later

Im also a bit stressed about going into the hospital at all, even though Mission is an amazing hospital to birth at i would rather be at home, so im going to have to make the hospital room as much like home as possible… wonder if the nurse will let me build a fort with chairs and sheets… probably not. I will just pretend im in one of these places….

Ok, Guess its time to decide if i want to go back to bed for an hour or just shower and make breakfast… or just go insane


Now on day 2 of 3 eventful days with my sweet husband, even though its technically not the “weekend” it is our weekend . After 10 days straight of him working its nice to spend some quality time together. Yesterday we got some felt and magnet sheets, and some fancy fabric to have a little crafty time.

Greg’s brother has been away for 3 weeks in Ukraine and just got back. He came over for a the evening yesterday, so while Greg was enjoying some bro/video game time I made these fancy burp rags! I just made a few but i have enough fabric for at least 12 more!

We made little felt MonSteR magnets for our fridge!

We also had a Midwife checkup today and everything is going great and right on schedule. Only problem is im not gaining much weight. I just don’t have a huge appetite and all i want is fruit so they suggested trying to get in more calories with nuts, nut butters, avacado, cheeses, yogurt etc. i can do that! I’m hoping to put on a couple of pounds by next checkup. I just ate a glob of peanut butter and nutella on cashew crackers lol … there is my start. Rowyn is moving with such intensity these days that it feels like my sides are going to burst sometimes! The shock of him wiggling around causes some shooting pains and sends me to the floor when im least expecting it. Its a constant reminder that our time as one is running out and soon he will be here, a separate little person. I cant wait to meet him but im sure i will miss the feeling of him in my belly.

In getting my body ready for baby i have started reading up on nutrition and heres whats up

I’m not a fan of leafy greens.. yes i know thats funny because im an herbalist and all that jazz but its just never been possible, i have and insta-gag reflex, so i have discovered Bolthouse farms Green Goodness smoothie. Check it out ~

Bolthouse Farms® Green Goodness® starts with wheat grass, spirulina, spinach and blue-green algae. We add apples, kiwis, mangos, bananas, pineapples and dragon fruit to make it a good source of iron and Vitamin B6, naturally rich in Vitamins A, C, and B12, and packed with powerful phytonutrients found in nature’s most nutritious greens.

Blend of 8 delicious juices/purees.Packed with 14 powerful nutrients delivering unmatched healthy green phytonutrients.No preservatives and nothing artificial.Flash pasteurized and cold-filled for longer shelf life and superior nutrition.100% Juice, 100% Natural and no sugar added.

I love it! i just taste kinda like a thick pineapple juice to me and its easy to drink the 8oz serving each morning. Along with this i have added a folate rich cereal by Kashi. I have  a really hard time eating breakfast so just doing this little juice and cereal routine is giving me loads of extra nutrition that i wouldn’t normally get and helps me not feel like im starving when lunch rolls around.

I have also fallen in love with Kiwi fruit! i have always liked it but i just discovered that its the one fruit i can buy that is consistently awesome tasting. I love peaches and raspberries and strawberries etc. all of these fruits are amazing but tend to be unpredictable in taste and texture. Kiwi is available year round and so far i haven’t tasted a bad one. The ones i have been buying are organic zespri from New Zealand. Kiwis have amazing nutritional value~ very low in Saturated Fat, Cholesterol and Sodium. It is also a good source of Dietary Fiber, Vitamin E (Alpha Tocopherol), Potassium and Copper, and a very good source of Vitamin C and Vitamin K.

I have also found some amazing research on kiwi’s being used as “aspirin” therapy because it is a natural blood thinner (which can be good news for those taking aspirin because aspirin can lead to leaky gut syndrome~ or the breakdown of the intestinal lining)

Kiwis just rock! keep reading about them… i feel like i find something new everyday 🙂

I have found that when i start wanting to snack these usually do the trick and i don’t end up eating a bunch of junk that i will regret.

Speaking of snacks, i really love stoneyfield farms cream on the top yogurt   (particularly the chocolate underground one). Full fat dairy products are also fertility boosters. Im not saying go out and eat a tub of ice cream everyday but a serving of full fat yogurt can only help. Here is a little blurb from feed the belly * A Harvard study found that women who ate two or more servings of low fat dairy products per week had a higher risk of ovulatory infertility, while women who consumed full fat dairy (like ice cream and whole milk) with the same frequency had lower incidence. You need a certain amount of fat to absorb vitamins.*

Eat the good organic stuff! Our bodies recognize whole foods and can process them better and put them to good use when they have been put through little to no processing.

Along with working on my diet and making sure im eating 3 good meals a day i have also stopped drinking. I have never drank very much except occasionally when im out with friends but i have read that alcohol can zap your body of folic acid. Folic acid (essential B vitamin) is so important that its recommended to start taking supplements 3 months to a year before trying to conceive. Folic acid is essential to the development of your baby’s spinal cord and spinal nerves. You also need it to produce red blood cells. We should be taking in 600 to 800 mcg of folic acid daily. This can be hard to do with just food alone because lets face it … this is america and we all have busy schedules that make it difficult to always keep track of what we eat. As an Herbalist i believe in  the importance in whole foods and knowing where your supplements come from and what they contain. A lot of companies will throw in egg shells for calcium and unnecessary ingredients to seem like they contain more but really your body will not recognize these ingredients and will spend more time trying to convert and sort nutrients that in the end what have you really gotten from your vitamin?  So with that being said, here is the whole food vitamin that im in love with~

this company totally rocks my socks! heres the link for the supplement facts~

Another supplement i like is evening primrose oil. My last post was about EPO. Its really amazing because it contains some fatty acids that are super essential and can help reduce pain with menstruation and also help your body create healthy cervical fluid (the kind that is needed to help the sperm get to the egg). *Note though that if you are taking EPO and TTC you should only take it from menstruation to ovulation then stop at ovulation because it could cause uterine contractions and if you were to become pregnant this is something you do not want to happen.

Some books i’ve been looking through~

This one is nice because its not intimidating. It tells you straight forward the best foods to eat how much of each vitamin or mineral is needed etc. There are also some yummy recipes in the back. I have already made 2 (lemony chicken with capers & ginger salmon) of them with success! I am no chef either so that is saying something. They were simple, with easy to find ingredients quick to prep & cook and tasted amazing and Greg loved them too ❤

This book isn’t the greatest thing in the world but it tells you how to understand your cycle and signals of fertility by tracking your morning temperatures and cervical fluid. Along with doing all this you can buy Fertility tests (to detect follicle stimulating hormone) & OPK’s (ovulation prediction kits) while your learning, to help you confirm your LH surge (LH surge leads to ovulation). I also found this printable chart on the, heres the link~

I have a list of books i still need to buy for my Doula training that im really excited about so once i get those i will start reviewing them on here.

This is of interest to me as well~ Did you know that most lubricants (other than your own fluids) can destroy sperm and prevent them from reaching there destination? I came across a product called pre seed. If extra lubrication is needed or you aren’t producing sufficient cervical fluid and TTC this could come in handy because its the only lubricant thats “fertility friendly” and will not hurt sperm or embryos. There are a lot of people who thought they were infertile or something was wrong when it was as simple as not having enough fertile cervical fluid. Its worth a try~

its obvious that i spend way to much time geeking out on pregnancy…

I’ve even found some favorite mommy blogs to read~





Today i experienced my first acupuncture visit. This is something i have pondered on for quite some time but never got around to until now. Since my break up with birth control i have been really good, tho its only been a week everything has been pretty normal so I’m working on supporting my body in the switch from birth control to function on its own natural rhythm. I don’t know a whole ton about Chinese medicine but i have studied massage and herbs and have learned enough to come to a positive conclusion about it. I’m very excited about this process! So, anyways, there is an amazing acupuncture college right here in Montford that has a student clinic. I actually had been looking into attending the school and had concerns of whether or not i could do years of school + baby so I spoke with the school director who gave me a list of students in there 4th year working in the clinic. One particular student she suggested speaking to is married with 3 kids, has a farm and his wife is also in school. That was definitely comforting to hear. I kinda shoved the list of students in my bag and planned on setting up an interview with him but life happened and i forgot. Oddly enough when i set up my appointment for acupuncture he was the student i was put with! I almost feel its a sign to continue researching becoming an acupuncturist but also a sign that anything is possible and if i want to do both i shouldn’t give up. WHEW! thats a bit of a tangent but to get to the point, i went to my session today and love the treatment i get from doctors of chinese medicine as opposed to the treatment you receive when you go to the doctors office. This is the way its suppose to be, they really took a look at every aspect of my body and lifestyle to understand the root cause of my issues instead of  just addressing a symptom and giving me a pill. We talked for 2 hours (because its a student clinic there is the main student, an intern and their mentor) they listened and asked lots of questions on top of my 2 page intake form. It was very interesting hearing that a lot of my issues that seemed unrelated were tied in to the big picture. They told me that some issues were genetic, part of my code given to me in the womb and since that is my concern- supporting the womb and fertility it is all connected and can all be addressed on one channel- chong mai. Chong mai focuses on the reproductive system and so far thats as much as i know, i plan to study up and further understand. This is the channel on the body that they tapped the needles in. I have to say that i hadn’t even thought of the needles until it was time for them and i was like “is it gonna hurt”. I sounded like a kid getting a shot and hoping for a lolly pop and someone to hold my hand. It did hurt, but only on one point. The point on my foot above my arch, other than that i was golden! They put 6 other needles along my abdomen and i didn’t even feel them, and one in my wrist (slightly uncomfortable but not near as bad as the foot 🙂 )

I stayed put with the needles in for a half an hour and waited as they talked amongst themselves about what herbs to combine for me. I’m still researching the herbs but so far its amazing how spot on all of them are and they seem to be well suited for me. I’m taking them as a decoction, which basically means a really strong tea. I’m doing a follow up visit next monday and will keep you posted on how it goes.

on a last little side note: although Greg and i aren’t even trying to get pregnant at the moment and i don’t know for sure with my medical history if infertility will even be an issue. This is simply my way of supporting my body and fingers crossed when we do try it will be easy breezy. Here is a tid bit that i found interesting: on to more adventuring…

At age 13 the struggle and pain began. Long, excruciating cycles for 2 weeks straight or none what so ever for almost 2 months was the lead up to my first ruptured cyst at age 14. I have never felt that much indescribable pain, riding to the hospital, sure that i was dying (i sound super dramatic but i hope you never have to experience it) finally making it to the hospital and so happily excepting a morphine drip. My visit set me up with the understanding that my cycles had been irregular due to the build up and blockage that the cyst was creating on my ovary and that it could continue to happen unless a regular dose of hormones (birth control) was taken. I have to say that i had no complaints and you wouldn’t either if you had felt the pain that i felt for my first year of womanhood. I was scared. I took the pills and took them for 9 years until this week. I’m thankful for the relief that birth control has provided me but this is a new chapter and 9 years is long enough. I’m looking forward to working with my body to understand and learn my natural cycle.

A while back i spoke to one of my amazing flower essence teachers about my issues and how i wanted to be free of birth control and she recommended femmenessence  (, it’s an herbal product made with different strands of maca to support natural hormonal function. So, for a month at least now iv’e been taking it while on the birth control to hopefully introduce it to my system before i just up and stop BC cold turkey. I’m waiting to see what happens and manifesting positive results. My cycle has started now and i plan to keep a journal to track it. I am praying that since my body has had a normal cycle for 9 years it will pick up where the BC left off. This is so important to me for so many reasons, especially as a woman working on fertility over the next year. I have plans to continue working with herbs. I am also looking into acupuncture to support me in my journey and will keep you posted on that as well ^_^

I’ m starting this blog as a way to entertain myself for the next year and half until my husband and i begin trying to get pregnant. I’m an Herbalist and a Massage Therapist and a Flower Essence practitioner in training and soon to be a Doula. I think i have always wanted to be a mother and my career choices reflect my passion for helping women and the magic that is pregnancy and birth and everything in between. I’m not sure what I’m going through lately, maybe its hormones and my bodies way of telling me I’m ready to be a mother but i feel like I’m going crazy. All i want to do is look at baby clothes, read baby books, look for baby names and figure out ways to prepare my body over the next year for pregnancy. I’ve also started a small local Asheville business called Ohm Gnome where i am in the process of making a range of products mostly focused on mama and baby, but also for pets, safe home cleaning products, and the most fun…. a line of Gnaughty Gnome products 😉

My husband Greg and I are trying out this 1 1/2  – 2 year plan so that we can get in some husband/wife travel time to make up for our honeymoon and hopefully save some money. So along with my baby crave ramblings i will share as we plan our out of country adventure to wherever it may be.

the adventure has begun